I have neglected my blog sooo much and I am disappointed that I have had no real desire to blog more, especially about this pregnancy.
But, it is what it is.
I am about 38 weeks pregnant and ready to go! I keep trying to remind myself that at the most I have 3 weeks left. 3 weeks because my dr (and I) really do not want to go that far past my due date before just scheduling a repeat c-sec.
My ultimate goal is to have a VBAC. And, yes, I am pretty scared! Hahaha! Some days, I want her out so badly just to hold and see in person that I am half tempted to just schedule a repeat for any time now. Of course then I think about how I want more children and how continuous c-secs are not safe. My dr only recommends 3 btw, which would leave me with only 1 more child. Biologically, of course.
Recovering from a c-sec is miserable, too. At least it was for me. I've heard that scheduled ones are not nearly as bad as unplanned/emergency ones, but still.
I would actually take one if they offered a tummy tuck to go with it... don't you think that should be standard with c-secs? I mean you are already having major surgery and are already cut in exactly the right places.... I vote yes!
So what am I doing to try to go into labor naturally?
What am I not doing?
I'm taking 2500 mg of evening primrose oil and 1000 mg of red raspberry leaf (which I know does not help induce labor but only helps to strengthen your uterine muscles). We have been doing the closed door method also... isn't that such a polite term? I read it the other day. I've also been doing lots of ni*ple stimulation. And I started walking last night... yes.... how awful I am just now starting to really go out and walk, but the hot, sticky weather isn't so appealing to me. The walk definitely did something... I am pretty sore down there. And I actually don't know where down there is- my bladder? my uterine muscles? I don't know. I just know it hurts a lot more "down there" when I walk. So definitely more walking is in store for me. I am not at all lacking in the Braxton Hicks contraction area as I have them about every 10 minutes and have been for several weeks. For months I have been having them farther apart. Luckily, most of them don't hurt.
I seem to ovulate late because each of my 3 babies have been exactly 10 days smaller than their due date according to my last menstrual period. Now I can't imagine that I ovulate that late in the month, but somehow they are all off. When the dr measures my stomach though I am always 1-3 weeks bigger and with K being 9 lbs 5 oz and 20.5 inches I know she was not lacking in size. With Kassidy, they changed my date. With Paisley, I think they changed the date and with Rylee I was thrilled when he didn't change the date. Who wants to go to their first ultrasound at 8 weeks and be told they are only about 6? Not I!
My point being that with Kassidy I had her exactly in between the 2 dates. I also took evening primrose oil and did lots of ni*ple stimulation the night before I went into labor. I've always thought that I had a serious hand in putting myself into labor, but now I am not quite sure since I seem to be doing even more this time around and am getting nowhere.
My dr was supposed to start sweeping my membranes last week, but I was not dilated at all. :( Total bummer, but I go again this Thursday and hopefully we will get that done then!
I definitely need to write down more here as a place to keep these memories since I can't seem to remember anything!